Monday, February 18, 2008

Feeling Blue.

Well hello there, well today I'm not sure is wrong, for the last few weeks all I've wanted to do is cry. A few day's ago I visited Karla at Karla's Cottage, and read her post on her mother, very beautiful and sweet, but I found myself crying, I thought it was just feeling alittle emotional that day, and how beautiful Karla wrote her short story, but today I have cryed half the day away, I keep asking my self what is wrong with me, even just writing about it now I'm tearing up. WHAT'S WRONG.. sob, sob, sob.

I have everything I need beautiful home, beautiful family and not to mention my beautiful website and all the creation's in it, and all you beautiful lady's that come and visit me on my blog. Yes I'm turning forty this year and I must say I don't feel it, and also know that's not my problem as I'm not one to dwell on age turning, Is this first stage of menopause, I do get the occational hot flush, but I've just put it down to our hot weather.
Well I'm not that old........or am I.

And I don't think it depression, as most of the time I'm happy go lucky, with not a care in the world, I have alway's found something to do creative wise, to keep the mind busy, I don't dwell on the past, always head. Sorry lady's for having to read this, I didn't want to pour my heart out, on my blog, I thought I'm ment to just write about thing on prettie's and what's going on in my creative world, but today welllllllll, I don't think that's going to happen, I was asked by my dear friend Beckie, am I pregnant? I told her I not sure, and that I'm due for mthly on friday, but I don't think it could be that.......could it... Naaaah. Could that happen, you know make you cry half the day away if your pregnant I have heard stranger thing's when your pregnant, like eating dirt Beckie.......lol now that made me laugh. Ok lady's on that note I must go, maybe I'll feel happier tomorrow and get out of the right side of my bed and not the emotional one.

With love and warm regards, now that I don't write, I always put Hugs.

Kirstie.

6 comments:

Natasha Burns said...

Hi Kirstie,
Sorry to hear you are feeling so blue. I immediately thought 'hormones' - whether it's the monthly, pregnancy or menopause I think they have a huge bearing on how you feel. I know what time of the month it is just because I get grumpy, lol! Hope tomorrow finds you better and feeling happier - maybe you should see your doctor just in case?
Natasha xo

Alison Gibbs said...

Hi Kirstie,
Maybe it's the weather!
I've been feeling that way too!
No periods for me though I've had a hysterectomy.
Sometimes even though we have all we have I think we get a bit lost and wonder where the real us is!!! Not the wife or the Mummy but the us. That vibrant chirpy person we used to be.
Maybe you need a bit of"ME TIME" Time for you to do want you want to do without the busy family times.
Hope you are feeling better tomorrow.
Alison

Alicia ~ Time Worn Style said...

Hi Kirstie, I hear you!! Do drop me a line at alicia@timewornstyle.com if you would like a chat, I know how you are feeling, I think it happens to us all from time to time
hugs
Alicia ~ time worn style

White O'Morn Cottage said...

I know exactly how you feel as I was just the same at that milestone. I think it was a combination of mid life crisis and pre- menapause symptoms. I'll talk to you in more detail soon. I'm in work just now, but just had to let you know --you are not alone!...love Pam

Amy Sutter said...

I don't know about you! BUT this weather is driving me batty! Once it gets to February, I am s read for Spring...it drives me bonkers. We have had some family sicknesses/battles with cancer this year and not to mention my kids have been sick most of the winter. SO I can totally understand your emotions... I usually read something when I am down, the bible or something inspirational and uplifting... Do something just for you or do someting wonderful for someone in need. I pray you are doing better my dear!!! And the birthday milestone is a challenge also.... What you are going through is completely normal! Thanks for blogging about it, I love it when people are open and share with others, because it helps others in return!
Warmest hugs and blessings,
amy :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Kristie,
So Sorry to hear that youve been having sad feelings!!Somtimes our emotions take over and we have no control over them. And it's hard to explain to yourself and others that you just dont know what's going on. Sometimes it's good to look at old family photos when you are down it really helps me to think about happy times!! I also give my Furry boys loads of cuddles when Im feeling sad for some reason it cheers me up a little.
Take Care
Mandii